Feeling good about my Journey and learning to focus on "ME"

I am feeling great tonight!! Best way I can describe it is , I finally have my mind and body in agreement. We are walking every morning, great way to start off my day. Weight loss seems a little slower than I want, but 7 pounds in the right direction is better than 7 pounds gained! It's a life change, it's not a diet. Right? So I am not in a race to lose weight, I have changed my lifestyle to get healthy, and of course, the weight loss will follow! I can already tell my energy level picking up from eating healthy and exercise. Everyday that I am able to crawl in bed at night, knowing I was in full control of my choices, I just get that much stronger.
As I was reading another weight loss blog last night, I found the following quote......"You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be". WOW!! Love that!
Before any weight loss surgery, you have to go through a Psychological evaluation. I guess to make sure you really know what your doing...LOL. Anyway, so you answer these questions about yourself and you visit with a Psychologist and he grades your score, and tells you what type of personality you are and tries to help you get to the bottom of your addiction. I don't make a good patient, and I probley don't learn what I should from them because I dont' want to be classified by a standard test and answer thing, and a "Score" to see, your this type of personality, therefore. Whatever! Right? I didn't have a tragic childhood with hidden secrets that made me addicted to food and I can't place blame on anyone or anything in my life. One of my biggest pet peeves in life is people that blame everyone else for all there problems and can't accept responsibility, drives me nuts!!! I know I am in control of what I put in my mouth and therefore, the blame lies with me, so I don't need to take a test and answer silly personal questions and have a stranger give me a grade. Yuck! But It was part of the process before I had a lap band, and I was determined to get it done, so I did it. It was just as I thought it would be, was a standard test of questions from birth to how you view yourself. etc etc. Then down the hall to get the "meeting on the long comfy couch".  As it turns out, I really liked the Psychologist, he was a really nice man, and we had a great conversation. He didn't really go over the questions and answers. "Thank Goodness" and we talked about how I am just a busy mom and I also talked to him about our Foster children  that we had at the time,  my job,  and my relationship with my husband, etc. Then he did ask me a few questions about being a Foster Parent.  I liked him alot, so I did feel comfortable talking with him. At the end, he did say, now, you are the kind of person that loves dealing with everyones problems, and do you think maybe sometimes you do that so you don't have to face your own problems? WHAT???? OK, so I get through and leave and think, glad that's over!!  Whatever!!   But....what did he mean by that? Weird!  So anyway, I wasn't that worried about it, my test was over, I passed! SURGERY TIME!!!
So then a year Post Op, you have to go back to the Psychologist, make sure you can deal with your new body, take another test, etc. So Here we go!
Back in his office again, by then I had lost 100 pounds, so I guess he makes sure I can handle my new Sexy body, LOL!!! Anyway, we talk about family, kids, Foster kids at that time, we didnt' have any because they had moved home, I had changed jobs.  After the same career for 13 years, I made a complete job change. We talked about the new career and how I felt it was better for my family. Again, at the end, he said, well, sounds good, but your still focusing on everyone else and not yourself. He said, its so much easier to focus on fixing and helping others, and then you don't have to focus on yourself. Be careful to put yourself in there somewhere or you'll end up back to square one. "WHAT?" What's with this guy? I did put some thought into it, but quickly though he's just a man, and they can't help it they tend to be a little selfish, so easy for him not to understand, women...right?    Seriously?  Are we suppose to put our own selfish needs and desires first? I have trouble with that thought pattern! I have thought about this conversation with the psychologist alot here lately, thinking maybe he had a valid point. For me, it has been easier to focus my attention on trying to save the world, and keeping my attention on everything else, but my own inability to take control of my own issues. Hmmm. Maybe he was a little bit correct. So I am trying to learn to focus on putting some "Me" time in the mix. It doesn't mean I am selfish, or a bad mom if I need to take some time out, "Just for Me". You have to first believe you are worth it...Hmmm, now there is a thought. So..Yes, I do believe I am worth it, I do believe I can achieve it and as much as I hate to admit it, I think that I am glad I took the time out for that little visit with the psychologist, although I didn't agree with him at the time, I can see now what he was talking about, and He was a little bit correct, not totally.(he's a man...and they have a selfish nature right?? LOL)...but some good points were made, and I am learning to focus some on "ME"!  :)