Hard Day @ the office..!!!! ((((Day 12 of Reboot))))

After getting off work last night, the boys and I headed to the new YMCA.  I am getting more comfortable with that place and I am loving the atmosphere.   I spent the first 30 minutes on the track, even jogged a few 1/2 laps, felt pretty good.  I then ventured over to the fitness equipment, I had met up with a co-worker and she gave me some good encouragement and I felt more comfortable and spent another 30 minutes on different machines, and wrapped up my evening with 5 minutes on the elliptical......OMG, that machine is way harder than it looks, I am pretty sure I looked like I needed oxygen when I stepped off that thing,  LOL!   It needs warning signs.   After a stressful day, going to the Y with my two oldest boys and then coming home and snuggling with my 3 year old on the coach in front of the fireplace and watching biggest loser ended a good day and the stress of the day was gone, without food being a stress reducer.  :)

I LOVE MY JOB!  I love my co-workers!  Eating Healthy and my job however, can often be a challenge.  My office is located right beside the kitchen area.  The kitchen area it is stocked with snacks, chips and frequent gifts of food from specialty offices that we refer our business too.  Yesterday there was a nice little basket delivered of hot chocolate, little coffee mugs, and cute little snowman marshmallows, to keep us warm in the single digit temperatures.    I don't like Hot Chocolate so for me, NO Temptation.  Another basket from another office was delivered today, it had some kind of pastry ring from Panera Bread......seriusly people, give us a basket of fruit, we are a dental office, why does it always need to be sweets or goodies?  Hello...does this make sense?   Also, a co-worker comes in our morning meeting and announced she brought lunch for everyone.  Grilled steaks.  So off to the store another assistant goes to get all the fixens to go with the steaks.  My favorite meal, Steak, baked potato and salad, and that's exactly what they had for lunch today. UGH!  Of course, right outside my office at around 11:00 is when the smells started ........drifting in.  UGH!  I have two doors to my office, one goes to the kitchen, and we often use my office as a shortcut so it is opened often.  TODAY however, I put a sticky note on my "Door", reading......."DO NOT OPEN THIS DOOR".  LOL.  I got tired of the smells, my stomach was growling and I was quickly becoming very crabby.  I have 2 more days of protein shakes and bars before I can even start my healthy eating plan of normal food.  And the best part is.............I survived.  I didn't cave.  I didn't join everyone for lunch though, but I had my protein shake and I survived the day without caving!   Whew.  It was a close one.  LOL!  

I have an employee issue at work that has to be resolved soon and it is a very stressful situation, so it has weighed on my mind alot this week, but I am proud to say, I didn't turn to food and that's what changing our habits is all about.  So I am feeling good!  I wanted to go the the Y tonight, but Hayden has a SS test tomorrow so we needed to study tonight.  :(     Tomorrow, Jona and I get to go to the Poncan Theatre and listen to Sean Anderson speak about his journey and breaking those barriers that led him to loose over 200 pounds, it will be a very motivational speech.  We will wrap our evening up with a work out at the Y.  I am already feeling guilty, my son turns 14 tomorrow, and I will be gone all evening on his birthday, but he seems to be fine with it........we will celebrate on Saturday.  (why do I always feel so guilty about doing something I know I need to do for myself? ...........I am really working on that! 

I have to be in Edmond to my dietitian at 8:30 Friday morning to see what my new healthy plan looks like and it will be my last day of reboot.  I'm thinking..........well, I know, my mind is finally going in the right direction here.  I can feel the success and it feels good!  :)

Family Membership to the YMCA.....'A great decision"

We started off Saturday morning, heading over the new YMCA in Ponca City.  It's an awesome facility.  I was so curious to see how my middle son, Hayden would like it.  I was very hopeful he would give it a try, and not worry about it being crowded with people.  (He can sometimes be very overwhelmed with crowds of people and will def. not try something new in front of strangers.)   Upon arriving, I checked Cayden into the Kids Zone, and then took Hayden on a tour.  Clay and Hayden decided to play racquetball, so I went up to the track for a walk.  It's 12 1/2 laps that make a mile and I am not into counting how many times I can walk in a circle, so I like to just walk for a certain amount of time.  I walked a good 45 minutes and a good friend arrived with her son and daughter.  I was hoping to get Hayden hooked up for orientation on the fitness equipment and I knew he might do well with other people he knew.  So we were able to watch as a trainer went through all the equipment and how they work etc.  It was great, she was very informative, although she made those machines look so much easier than they are....LOL!   Turns out......everyone had a blast.    This might just be the best $46.00 a month I have spent in a very long time! 
My weekend has gone extremely well, have stayed on my reboot program and will go back to my dietitian on Friday and be put on a plan that will fit my new healthy lifestyle.  :)  
It's snowing tonight and very cold, I would  love to sit down with a bowl of chili for dinner (but I won't).  My husband has ribs in the oven that are smelling great, and that's def. not my favorite food but tonight........wow, they smell good!   That's OK, because I am focused on the prize...............and that's to get my body to a healthy size, where I feel good, look good.  I don't know what weight that will be and I don't really care at this point...I just want to feel and look good and be in control of what goes in my mouth, and then I'll buy some new cute gym outfits, and run my 5K, that's my goal............and I can see it more clearly everyday!

Stepping out of the "Comfort Zone". (((It's kinda scary))))

I took a leap today and joined the new YMCA in Ponca City.  It's an awesome facility and I am excited to begin a routine of exercise.  After joining today, we decided to try out the indoor track for a walk and it's very nice!   Walking around looking at all the equipment,  WOW.  I had to wonder if I'll ever be comfortable walking around all the people that obviously know what they are doing, in their cute little workout outfits.  It also occurred to me.......geez, what I am gonna wear?   I talked to myself though alot before making this decision and have decided I know I need to be there, and I need to not care what anyone else thinks and do my own routine that I am comfortable with and then maybe someday, I can have my cute little gym clothes and be able to hop on those machines and make it look effortless........!   I purchased the family membership and look forward to making this a family evening event.  My husband is not totally sold out yet on coming with us, but trust me........he will be!  :)

After a very productive day all around, we made a quick family trip to Stillwater to get Clay his birthday present..(he turns 17 on Monday).  He also needed some special "Top feed" for his show sheep.  I have no clue about this, but we ended up having to drive to Perkins to get it,  and of course, everyone is starving by 7:30, and we are in Stillwater.  I announce that I won't be eating, i brought my protein bar, but they could drop me off and let me shop and go eat.  They opted for "Whataburger" and ate in the car on the way home.  Let me tell you, on day 7 of nothing but Protein shakes and bars, WOW, did that smell good.  I was able though, to take my mind somewhere else, and actually was surprised how strong I felt about it.   

This is it for me, I can tell, my mind has finally gotten in line with where I need to be, and It's exciting to feel a sense of control and little steps of accomplishment.!!   Now praying I can get my family on board to a lifestyle change of much healthier habits. 

Day 4 of my Reboot............

Well, this is day 4 of my "Reboot" program.  If you have ever had to stick with a plan of liquid and 2 protein bars a day, for a period of more than a couple days, you can appreciate this!  I had a lady ask me today, Why would you do that?  Why don't you just start the "healthy eating plan?"
My response......".my dietitian did this to me."  Wasn't my idea!  LOL!   Seriously, I totally understand "Why".   This is all about discipline and a mind set.  It's getting your mind right, building up your willpower and achieving an immediate result to build your confidence that says,  YES I CAN!  So I def. understand what its all about, and I think its a great plan to get started in a lifestyle change and I am feeling stronger and more confident about it everyday!  My friend expressed that her husband is somewhat concerned that she isn't getting her Nutrition she needs out of these shakes and bars. She is feeling some opposition from him about this.   I think its awesome when men are supportive and try and help all they can.  My response to my husband would be.....so honestly do you think maybe I was getting more nutrition from my previous diet that got me into this position than what I am getting from my researched..nutritional shakes and bars?  I mean, lets set down and figure the nutritional value of my previous diet verses what I am trying to accomplish in the next 14 days with this plan that will then lead me into making healthier choices for a lifetime... I promise you a shake is going to outweigh your nutrition value  of a slice of pizza or some chips and salsa.  So I would say, Thank you honey, I love your support........I have researched this and I am confident it's a safe plan.  I'll make sure and take my vitamins everyday in case I am missing something, but I am positive I am moving in the right direction here....  ;)
On Thursday,  I am going to a Weight Loss Kick off at the YMCA in Ponca City, Sean Anderson, from Ponca City, a local radio personality, has lost over 200 pounds in the last 2 years, with nothing but a lifestyle change of healthy eating and exercise, he is going to be speaking and he is very motivating, I am very excited about hearing what he has to say.  He also has an awesome blog page, called, losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com   it is def. a must read if your on this journey.  Another great friend of mine has started  her journey and tonight on her page, she posted the following quote that I am going to re post because its an awesome quote......
 " "What the mind can perceive, the body can achieve."   

A New Me for 2011!

I love the holidays, and Thanksgiving and Christmas are my favorite time with family.  This year though, I am glad the holidays are over!  I am excited what this year will bring. One thing I will accomplish this year among my goals will be a healthier lifestyle.  I have struggled in November and December to stay on track.  From August to Thanksgiving I managed to lose 30 pounds, from Thanksgiving to today, I have managed to gain 9 of that back.  I have decided though, enough of feeling guilty about that, today we move forward and I am so excited to be back on my journey.  I am taking the advice of my dietitian and following a "Reboot Program" for the first 14 days of Jan. (this consists of protein shakes and bars only for 14 days). I will go back to her office in Edmond on the 14th of Jan and she will guide me in a plan of what is best for me, to continue with a healthier lifestyle.    I met Chris, my dietitian in 2006 when I had lap band surgery, and I really like her alot.  She is very real and very to the point and truly cares about her patients.  Some health issues led me back to visit my lap band doctor this past month, he advised me to visit with Chris and get me back on track to utilize my lap band correctly, as a tool that it was designed to be.
After visiting with the dietitian regarding other patients that have struggled 3 or more years after weight loss surgery, I know for sure, it doesn't matter what kind of surgery you do or don't have.  Its all about 80% mental because if you don't have your mind leading you correctly, your not going to have long term success.
I am looking for Long term success, not a year of healthy and then a road leading back to where I am today.  I have a close friend that had lap band surgery after me, she too struggled with weight gain, she began her new healthy lifestyle in Jan of 2010 and WOW, so proud of her success this past year,  A great motivation to me!  I have another close friend who I went to high school with and back in 2000, we supported each other and took off the pounds and felt great.  She too is struggling now, having just had a baby this past year, she is ready to take off the pounds in 2011, so we have decided, today is a great day to begin our journey....1-1-11,  1st day of the year!   I'm excited but the most important thing to remember I think is, it's not just to get the weight off,  It's a Lifestyle change that needs to last forever!   
I am excited to get a family membership to the new YMCA in Ponca City, for the family.....Yep, gonna drag my kids with me and we are gonna get healthy and have fun doing it!  In the past this kinda makes me feel uncomfortable, going into a place to exercise where it seems so many of the people there are totally in shape and know what they are doing....I have decided, to step out of my comfort zone and not care what anybody thinks, Its time I do it for me.  So...........here I go!!
I will post a Starting picture on here, I have one before Lap Band too I'd like to add, to show my entire journey, as I find other people's blogg's very motivational and I hope too, along the way I can inspire someone, as there are plenty that have inspired me.  
...........  I am so excited!  Happy New year to everyone!!